The seven books in the collection are different from anything else on the market because of their origins. We 7 authors are truly friends. We were all brought together by Ashley Linne and the publisher's editorial staff in 2013; and from the moment we met, we "clicked." Yes, we promote each other's work, but we tend to be more concerned with each other's lives. In just 2 years we've birthed 3 babies and made 4 cross-country moves. Our chat room looks more like a family's daily ramblings than a work site.
The team's dedication to God and each other over our concerns for our own works made all of our books better. We learned from each other. I would do a theological review for one author while another was teaching me how to blog (or do anything tech-related!). I know this is a unique community experience among authors. I don't know how to move forward without them going with me. So at the moment, I'm not moving forward. I'm mourning. I'm waiting.
I learned during David's and my 7 years of fertility treatments that God teaches me the most when I'm not doing anything but listening. But I'm a where-there's-a-will-there's-a-way kind of girl...
...just ask my parents: Back in 2002 they said, "Sure you can go dig in Israel--if you get a full scholarship to do it." One week later, I gave them the "good" news.
...or ask my husband: This summer he rightly said, "We don't have the money to get that fig tree removed." So I sold it instead!It wasn't until 5-or-so years ago that I learned, "God helps those who help themselves," is not a Bible verse. It is an American adage with inherent value, but I tend to live as if it is Scripture. God made me tenacious, but He wants me to doggedly pursue His will and not my own plans.
The Eternal One is good to those who expect Him,
to those who seek Him wholeheartedly.
It is good to wait quietly
for the Eternal to make things right again.
It is good to have to deal
with restraint and burdens when young
(Lamentations 3:25-27, VOICE).
In 586 BC Jerusalem was razed by the Babylonians, and her prominent citizens were exiled to Babylon or other cities within the Empire. The Book of Lamentations was written shortly after the war to the Israelites who remained in Jerusalem; and in this passage, the writer is encouraging his suffering readers to wait patiently but expectantly for God to act.
Verse 27 points out that the burden of suffering is best experienced when one is young. Two things result from suffering in youth: one learns that affliction is temporary while God's mercy is permanent, and someone who survives suffering at an early age is less likely to be consumed by it when she is older.
So I'm learning. I know that when disaster and loss come, God is faithful and has a will and a plan that supersede my circumstances.
I'm waiting. I'm reading the Bible and praying. I'm asking advice from friends and colleagues, but I'm keeping myself from pursuing a new goal until God makes clear where He intends for me to go next.
I am sad that I can't return to the nurturing community of authors and editors I enjoyed as Barren was published, but I am encouraged that God is somehow preparing me to better work for His Kingdom.
That confidence in Him makes today a good day.