Friday, April 24, 2015

Fast-Forwarding to Mother's Day

My calendar can't possibly be correct: is it the end of April already?

Since my last post we've moved across the country (again), bought a 1916 Foursquare in a "transitional" downtown neighborhood, watched bath water rain from the coffers in the dining room, and cut a hole in a master-bedroom wall. All with a basset hound puppy (sometimes literally) underfoot.

Life seems to be approaching equilibrium. After 3 months Chattanooga is less mysterious, there is drywall on our dining room ceiling, and Copper is nearly house trained. What seemed scary has become good: we love our co-ed and senior-adult neighbors, destruction has given way to renovation, and Copper is nearly house trained. It is time that I stop spending my days in crisis-response mode and return to writing.

I do so none-too-soon. Forgetting for the moment that backlog of books I have to write, my May calendar is full of Barren-related guest blog posts, radio interviews, and Facebook page hosting. I'm even doing a couple of giveaways. Though no one has said, "We want to talk to you now because it's close to Mother's Day," I know the holiday is the impetus for at least 2 interviews. That makes me nervous.

In the last few years, I've read many blogs and articles that blast Mother's Day. They like to highlight all the ways the day and its celebrations in church hurt women who struggle to be mothers or have lost a child. While I certainly agree that Mother's Day can inflame fertility wounds and I freely admit to ditching church services on several second-Sundays in May, I am not and have never been anti--Mother's Day.

Why? Because on Mother's Day I honor my mother (and do my best not to think about myself).

When I was growing up, Mother's Day was a big deal. It was the second-most-attended church service of the year (after Easter but before Christmas!), and it was one of the few Sundays my family went out for lunch instead of going home to sandwiches. When we'd get to church, the children would be drafted to pass out carnations to all the moms: white for moms whose own mothers had died, red for the mothers whose mothers were living, and yellow for the mothers who had lost children. It was easy to know who got what because all the moms were already wearing white, red, or yellow corsages when they got to church.

As an adult I've enjoyed buying my mother's--and eventually my mother-in-law's--corsages. Roses and carnations are the traditional flower choice, but I like to shake it up. Gardenias, irises, daisies, and even orchids have decorated my mother's dresses over the years. Sometimes I've made the corsage; sometimes I've bought one.

About five years ago, we realized my mom was the only woman at her church who still wore a flower on Mother's Day. Every year I ask if she still wants me to get her one, and every year she says yes! She says that she loves telling everyone how her daughter bought (or made) that corsage just for her. And I love doing it.

So in the coming weeks when I'm asked to talk or write about how Mother's Day makes me feel and I admit that no holiday does more to remind me of my fleshly desires and wounds, I'll do my best to remember the woman who gave me life. She deserves no less celebration for the years she sacrificed to raising me just because my own dreams of motherhood have not been achieved. In fact, she deserves more because of the extra love she's showered on me during my years of pain and miscarriage.

Keep reading Healthy and Hopeful in May for "Mother's Day Survival Tips for the 'Barren' Woman" and a great book-necklace giveaway!

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